合うは別れのはじめ

今日はマースを空港まで見送っていた。。。以外に難しかったよ。涙は止まらずに流れて、多くて多くて、どこからのかしらww　

I have to learn and remember how to live and be alone again - it was never an issue till six months ago... How things can change, and so unexpectedly so. I never thought a lot of things about myself - how I judge/think about certain stuff, how I expected myself to always be like, how I viewed myself and others - but Mas has certainly helped me realise and learn a lot more.

The dorm became A LOT lonelier in the space of just today. Isabel's gone since Saturday, roommate since Sunday, and Mas today. And when I got back from the Airport, I realised most of the Thailand crew/3F people were moving out too. 寂し～いね…Then I went and said bye to CFC too; but that was already a long-drawn out affair since I've actually not been to practice for about 6 months now. I wasn't too affected that nobody was too sad that I'm leaving; but the fact that I couldn't text Mas or call him after that just to hear his voice or know I'm going back to him... wow yeah my eyes kept blurring again.


I miss him so much already. How did he get so wedged into my life so permanently?!?!

But I also do hope that the tears-well would dry up -at least for now.
I'm tired, grumpy, sleep-deprived for 3 days now, even forgot to eat till 11pm, and still I'm kinda nervy and jumpy from I'm not sure what. I really hope I can see his face soon otherwise I just might end up staying up for no reason whatsoever.


I misshimmisshimisshimissshimmisshim >>>>>.<<<<<<

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