been a few days since i've done this. feeling very subdued now. so decided needed to blog. sleepy and quiet.. u kno that kinda mood where u dun wanna talk to anyone at all. bleh. lets see.. swim carn on friday wuz horrid. taking attendance such a headache. probly also cuz i mined eg til like 5am that morning =P but then oh well... i really cant wait for sports fest to be over. i dun have time to slack or just take a breather. after sports fest is caltex then Os then mocks then nats then Os =/ and i still havnt decided if im going jc. probably. but which jc? still dunno.. sigh.. i stilll have this great reluctance to go jc.. >.< i think im just lazy. dun wanna live this kinda life anymore. no life at all man.

anw we got 3 dms liao so far. 2 came to me. one to roti. next one will be his again. i wanna mine down once all by myself.. but i bet it'll take ages. moms leaving tmr night. and like today she had some problems with the camera crew from china. they're so smart. day before departure, start complaining that they dun wanna wake up so early to film.. and all the times visitng the companies have been set liao lorh. and they cant be fired cuz its like tmr going liao. oh well. hols pretty slack i think but its gonna zoom by. i hope i get the inspiration to clean my room. or at least organise my sec 3 and 4 stuff. and learn chinese. chinese lessons are useless.. i dun learn a goddamn thing. such a freaking waste of my time. and she wanted to have TWO chinese remedials a week. blah. but now she decided on one. friday. there goes my free day. only mon left now. unless chem occasionally takes it up. chem is good. i feel good during chem remedial learn stuff ya. n ms tays a marvellous teacher. hope i dun disappoint her n myself this year.

i finally changed my earrings today. no one said it wuz nice. i think only i think so. its the rect with star one. heh. and i went to this fashion to shop just now. chanced upon it in dhoby ghaut and went in to take a look. stupid pouring rain. theres this pants i like alot. still cant find a skirt. sigh. lousy cuts.. my butt so big. bleh. sigh. im kinda sleepy shld i go sleep or mine eq again? i dunno... =/ i shld start studying.. yeah i think i shall.. but i need more strength. friday slept at 7+ and woke up at 2am. oh and today so sad k. had house prac but no trng. waste my time. and i realised i've spent 250 hours for house prac... useless thing. waste of time. sigh. sigh sigh sigh. ugh. sigh. i think im getting pms. and im such a loner nowadays. i dun talk to anyone. unless complaining abt chinese lesson. and mrs mo. bleh. im scared for my geog. up til now i have no idea how to write a mature answer that shows thought blah. ccrap shit. i got 10/10 for the recent test tho. surprising but she said my answers lacked thot/maturity. i shld start swimming. sigh.. why cant there be a one person racket sport.. mbbe i'll take up squash. i realised theres a squash and tennis ctr at yio chu kang. mbbe i can go there. i think i need a break to like catch my breath, and get back my energy. im like just moving thru stuff like zombie. too draining. now i got attendance to worry abt. sigh. =/. sigh sigh sigh. one after another. im just glad not all at one go. and i still got track camp proposal. darns. ugh. sigh. i wish my brother wuz here. hes at grandpas house cuz hes going dunman on mon or smth. cool huh. heh. i think i shld start planning out my days... at least i'll feel accomplished but i'll probly just not follow as usual. sleepy. tmr has the studyinaust exhibition shld i go?
sigh.
i dunno.
dunno.
and i think im losing my appetitite. actually mbbe not. probly gaining. in school eat two meals. big ones. like 2 bowls of mee. then come home eat one scoop of rice only. etc. oh and i managed to save 20 bucks this week. just didnt feel like spending plus my bill wuz 70 bucks. need to save. sleepy. sigh. think i shall go. night.

'in ur darkest hour, look up and u'll see theres always a star with u' =)