Then I Saw His Face...

Now I'm a believer! Not a trace.. of doubt in my mind! I'm in loveeee...

Blah. I can't tell if I'm really just fooling the rest so well that I'm fooling myself already.. or maybe.. just maybe... it's for real? I dont kno dont kno dont knoooo!!! Argh. It's like at first it seemed like something more innocent, but I seem to slide deeper and deeeeeeper in. Now I feel like so aware of him and he doesn't know I exist. Haha. Except maybe as one of those irritating j1s... I can't stand this!! Like all my seniors know about it and I'm half afraid that it'll be blown open, yet I'm also curious to know what his reaction will be like.. I'm asking for it man. I already know it won't be a nice reaction, not like R uik's one... Snifff. Zi tao ku chi. Whoaaaa sprouting chinese man. Orals over though. Haha. Anyway guess what.. I think I found out cheeky's add! Like actual add!! Hahaha!!! I wonder what I should do with it... Hmmm...

Gotta pack my bag for the ccal camp at Bintan starting tmr. Sigh not exactly looking forward to it... Why can't I be in the same subgroup as any of my hockey babes man. I should be with my partner! Then we can learn how to tolerate each other and work better together! Sniff... I hope I enjoy the trip... But, I'm in the mood for some relaxing tai-tai overseas retail therapy kinda trip now, not exactly lets-happily-roll-in-the-mud kind...

Oh well. I cant stand this. I love hockey. I love alan. (HA HA you didnt just see that! =/) I love money. I just wish I'd love myself a lil bit more...

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~