Floorball III
Pissy dayyyy!!! UGH. I flew into a tantrum on court today. shit ass i wuz SO PISSED. i screamed like 9 times earlier to her to mark her man. and she didnt hear me once. how can i constantly be shouting at ppl what to do and who to mark if u want me to watch the ball!! floorball the ball how fast sometimes also! wthhh. ugh. then after that i didnt even get that pissed then, just a lil irritated. then next time i worked with her... omgggg the attacker whom she wuz supposed to mark got the ball and scored! BLOODY HELL! i wuz so pissed. probly cumulative. then also probly cuz i cldnt stop it... i apologised to her later and i found out that she didnt even realise i wuz shouting at her! WTF. waste of my energy. ugh damn pissed.
in a way i really wanna tell her to just get a new cca come on. one where she might actually belong to or contribute. its like she's on a totally different wavelength from the rest of us. and we have tried... tried and tried to accommodate her... but we dont really seem to have much to talk abt! and esp me! I TRIED. so hard. even since when she first came in! helped cheer her in her pyramid runs, encourage her, try to teach her stuff.. etc and now shes so reliant. and i cant stand it. how can she be a forward and run so slow and not fight hard for the ball when everyone else is giving that much more??! ugh. and if ure tired just sub out! come on! pushing in floorball wont get u anywhere.. u need to be fresh! ugh. plus u ask us to scream at u what to do, but nothing goes in?! whats the point! WASTE MY EFFORT AND ATTN!
also i guess in a way shes good for hockey. she seems like the only one who can comfortably approach a largeeee group of guys. i guess in a way both hockey guys and girls are similiar. we're all like very into our own gender of friends kind. so we can just ignore each other even if we're walking damn near each other! haha. funny la. i've kinda given up hope on improving the relations between the two sides. seems difficult esp since im not like her. plus i think i scared some of them today... residue of the tantrum on court. haha. they picked a bad timing haiya. but seriously they keep chasing us for money for wat! just told us tues or wed abt it then each day come over bug a few times. oh well... just nice at that time me joan and tsai were in a bitching mood abt her counterpart in floorball. lol. trying to keep all those bad feelings inside is hard man. im usually just say what i think. so i guess it burst out at the guys instead of the person who deserved it.
sometimes i hate teamwork. one person doesnt give her best and the whole team suffers more than her worth. at the same time when everyone gives their best and magic happens, performance more than doubles. its exciting. oh well. and also if someone is just not good enough, ppl still cant say it right out in her face that she cmi and shld just stop affecting us. we just like make excuses for her mistakes and like take the blame...
i think i have to make the break one day. and play the bad guy role. it might not be nice... but it'll be beneficial for everyone...
in a way i really wanna tell her to just get a new cca come on. one where she might actually belong to or contribute. its like she's on a totally different wavelength from the rest of us. and we have tried... tried and tried to accommodate her... but we dont really seem to have much to talk abt! and esp me! I TRIED. so hard. even since when she first came in! helped cheer her in her pyramid runs, encourage her, try to teach her stuff.. etc and now shes so reliant. and i cant stand it. how can she be a forward and run so slow and not fight hard for the ball when everyone else is giving that much more??! ugh. and if ure tired just sub out! come on! pushing in floorball wont get u anywhere.. u need to be fresh! ugh. plus u ask us to scream at u what to do, but nothing goes in?! whats the point! WASTE MY EFFORT AND ATTN!
also i guess in a way shes good for hockey. she seems like the only one who can comfortably approach a largeeee group of guys. i guess in a way both hockey guys and girls are similiar. we're all like very into our own gender of friends kind. so we can just ignore each other even if we're walking damn near each other! haha. funny la. i've kinda given up hope on improving the relations between the two sides. seems difficult esp since im not like her. plus i think i scared some of them today... residue of the tantrum on court. haha. they picked a bad timing haiya. but seriously they keep chasing us for money for wat! just told us tues or wed abt it then each day come over bug a few times. oh well... just nice at that time me joan and tsai were in a bitching mood abt her counterpart in floorball. lol. trying to keep all those bad feelings inside is hard man. im usually just say what i think. so i guess it burst out at the guys instead of the person who deserved it.
sometimes i hate teamwork. one person doesnt give her best and the whole team suffers more than her worth. at the same time when everyone gives their best and magic happens, performance more than doubles. its exciting. oh well. and also if someone is just not good enough, ppl still cant say it right out in her face that she cmi and shld just stop affecting us. we just like make excuses for her mistakes and like take the blame...
i think i have to make the break one day. and play the bad guy role. it might not be nice... but it'll be beneficial for everyone...
~ st*rcr*ss*d ~
posted by fallen star at 9:43 PM
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