i feel so drained and peeved now. like just at times i feel like bursting into tears. dun even kno why. chanced upon zuls blog the other day. gosh read til want to cry. its so ... raw.. i hope whoeva hurt him learns to appreciate him and i hope hes smart enough not to do anything silly. my brothers so fking irritating.. keeps bugging me to let him use the comp... n like now i have to provide lunch dinner breakfast and clean and wash and wake them up early. stupid shit. and like all the food in the fridge is rotting cuz i've no fking idea how to cook them. and some asshole of a neighbour keeps smoking his fking cigarette so the smoke wafts into my hse and i happen to be a misocapnist? damn. trng yest wuz damn bad. i just felt dead before i started so then we had spec med ball throws and then sprint test again then circuit 3 rounds of double rounds. sprint test sucked. supposed to beat last years timing. rofl.. and i slowed down alot as expected. blah. anw then the circuit first round i died liao. until 3 round i started feeling not so giddy and faint and then my coach asks if im okay.. weird =/ i wanted to go watch the shakespeare thing but i realise i have no time and no body to go with. sigh. only asked evelyn but she said she wuznt interested... dunno who else to ask. wanted to go for the studyinaust exhibition today but yet again being the coward i am i dun dare go without my dad. whos working. and my mums in china. whee. n everythings peachy. just peachy. only that i have to mass call ppl and guess wat? i dun have their fking numbers. yay. my brothers down there groaning and moaning away... making all those disgruntled noises and i dun like yaku and kia and aaron gave up on me after one day. and he still dared say he likes me? rofl i knew it. he loves mel. he just got a shock when she got another bf. pfft.. i think hes made for her.. esp since he can put up with her.. or mbbe he doesnt kno wat shes really like.. lol. im sick of late nights. they're draining me. but i feel so desperate im like trying to find something.. online offline whereva.. but i cant find it. so i stay on the comp til wee hours and just spend my life with words.. i think my guitars improving a wee bit. its so fun now to play. esp when u have all those right chords to play heh. my best fren -the guitar. rofl coolio. and i still got house stuff to do. yay. so fun! -gasp- tsxh suggested a cheer up outing when i talked to her the other day... cuz i went like wateva in her 'face' rofl and i apologised after that cuz i felt so bad. im so grumpy now.. and no im not pmsing. i wish i cld go away and live life the way i want. but then doesnt everybody want that? and nothing eva turns out the way u think it will. sigh. still got track attndance to settle. blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah. grrrr. i hate the hse. its so hot. freaking hot. i love my mini hifi. its the only thing that keeps me sane besides the guitar. thanks pa. and i neva end up blogging abt stuff i planned to blog abt lol.

'in ur darkest hour, look up and u'll see theres always a star with u' =)