Learning to Let Go

Unlike what the title might hint - no this is not some because-I-love-you-so-much-I-will-let-you-go post. Instead, it's a learn to let go and love myself post! =)

Perhaps despite the slackness and comparatively quieter (on the aspects of school and clubs) life here, I have to say that one of the valuable lessons that I've learnt here, is probably to learn to let go, just live and love myself. Back home, I hardly would have gone karaoke - because 1) it's too expensive 2) I don't think I sing well enough 3) seemed kiddish?!. Neither would I have the courage to play the guitar in front of people, and I still remember despite hot-val-vince's encouragements, I could never really dare to try to harmonise. But here, I'm gradually, initially unconsciously, and subsequently subconsciously learning to just let myself be and do all that. I don't know what I always had this perfect image of people in mind, but it never really mattered if people didn't match up - because I knew imperfections were what made each and everyone of my friends, my friend and something precious to me. Yet, the greatest irony was probably that I could never do that for myself.

Funny how I had to live 3000miles away before I dared to let myself take that tiny step beyond my self-imposed and self-defined fragile shell? So I better value this yes, and hopefully continue to unfurl - with alot of blunders, selfconscious laughs, and unexpected falls; but just knowing I will come out to love myself more, and to be myself more.

Thank you Japan =).

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~