Desolate

I feel so sad! All my fault for not religiously keeping up with the class blog... ='( I missed j ill's birthday dinner! I feel quite sad haha dunno why. Nvm I'm sure the girl had lotsa fun anyway. She's quite likeable ya.. even though at first I totally totally didnt know what to make of her and didn't like her at all. Hehe. Happy Birthday girl! Though u'll probably never see this =P

I'm dying here. Figuratively of course. If it was literal, I won't even waste my time here. Got too much to do. I wish I could regain the urgency of the past months... I'm starting to let my homework fall behind. Probably because now it takes more effort to achieve just a tad of that same standards... I dunno sigh. It's been 2 weeks and I'm still trying to START my international history essay. I hate writing essays which I cannot decide exactly what I want to write from the start. I hate it hate it hate it. Unless it's lit cuz somehow it'll just flow once I get started. Wait... I have to START first. I have another lit essay that has to be done. Something tells me I obviously won't get it done by tmr...

So I decided. Once I finish my history essay I will allow myself to watch two vccds of Meteor Garden and consume 1/3 the loaf of cereal bread with butter! Omg I'm drooling at the thought already. I'm so sleepy from sleeping at 4am + last night. So oh well.

Yup. Once school reopens, I'm going running + gymming twice a week. And playing floorball on fridays too. Confirm. Plus I'm gonna stay back everyday and study the fuck off my socks.

I'm getting quite pissed with myself.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~