Matter K
Matter K's been getting really serious recently... especially after incident 1 when we were out stargazing at Sunr- Pt. Plus all my friends have began asking me really really seriously if I feel anything for him. Honestly, and I tell them this, I really really don't know. It took me so long to figure out what I feel for R-j that I just know I'm pretty darn dense about stuff like feelings.
I really really enjoy being with him, and hanging out with him, because he makes me laugh alot. Plus he has small little actions that are kinda sweet, like always trying to make sure I enter the door first, or walk in front of him. Small things like that, or also just asking "How was your day?". Honestly, I can't say I remember these same stuff with R-j.
But this afternoon, I actually felt like he was a little too sticky for once. I'm not sure if it's because I was kinda tired and energy-less the whole day today, so that might have made me grumpier than usual. And a whole lot less patient. Plus maybe his tipsiness last night, made me feel like a babysitter or a caretaker for a dog and used up quite abit of my patience probably.
Whatever it is, matter K has actually helped me realise that this group of friends is really pretty solid. Some of them may not have very good impression of K, especially since he shoots his mouth off alot and isn't very sensitive about it, and all of them know that I'm with R-j, but they're still very supportive of me. It's really quite amazing. Makes me appreciate people like that alot. They keep saying that we act like a couple though, although I feel like I'm more of a babysitter with a dog on a leash sometimes. Heh.
I'm not sure if I like being with K, or it's just that his attention and action is really so sweet/ moving. Cuz he's like the total opposite of R-j, and K just shows or says whatever he feels like. That's probably what drew me to him in the first place -- his straightforwardness and him being unafraid to show what he feels or thinks. I like clearcut, black-and-white people. So his nice small actions towards me come across even nicer as compared to how he treats the others. And not talking about R-j, this was what I always imagined I'd want in a guy. A guy's guy, who treats everybody not that great/okay, but treats one nice. R-j is like quiteeee the opposite heh. Even though that was exactly what got me liking him.
And... I'm starting to wonder/doubt again -- if he actually misses my presence. I'm actually probably more convinced/sure that Y-s and X-x do miss me more than I am sure that my absence is making any difference in R-j's life. Whoopeedooo here we go again =P
What messy things feelings are...
I really really enjoy being with him, and hanging out with him, because he makes me laugh alot. Plus he has small little actions that are kinda sweet, like always trying to make sure I enter the door first, or walk in front of him. Small things like that, or also just asking "How was your day?". Honestly, I can't say I remember these same stuff with R-j.
But this afternoon, I actually felt like he was a little too sticky for once. I'm not sure if it's because I was kinda tired and energy-less the whole day today, so that might have made me grumpier than usual. And a whole lot less patient. Plus maybe his tipsiness last night, made me feel like a babysitter or a caretaker for a dog and used up quite abit of my patience probably.
Whatever it is, matter K has actually helped me realise that this group of friends is really pretty solid. Some of them may not have very good impression of K, especially since he shoots his mouth off alot and isn't very sensitive about it, and all of them know that I'm with R-j, but they're still very supportive of me. It's really quite amazing. Makes me appreciate people like that alot. They keep saying that we act like a couple though, although I feel like I'm more of a babysitter with a dog on a leash sometimes. Heh.
I'm not sure if I like being with K, or it's just that his attention and action is really so sweet/ moving. Cuz he's like the total opposite of R-j, and K just shows or says whatever he feels like. That's probably what drew me to him in the first place -- his straightforwardness and him being unafraid to show what he feels or thinks. I like clearcut, black-and-white people. So his nice small actions towards me come across even nicer as compared to how he treats the others. And not talking about R-j, this was what I always imagined I'd want in a guy. A guy's guy, who treats everybody not that great/okay, but treats one nice. R-j is like quiteeee the opposite heh. Even though that was exactly what got me liking him.
And... I'm starting to wonder/doubt again -- if he actually misses my presence. I'm actually probably more convinced/sure that Y-s and X-x do miss me more than I am sure that my absence is making any difference in R-j's life. Whoopeedooo here we go again =P
What messy things feelings are...
~ st*rcr*ss*d ~
posted by fallen star at 3:27 PM
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