Thumpity Thump

Slightly worrying, but I think I'm actually getting pretty dependent on K's company. I usually see him/talk to him or hang out with him every night, but that didn't happen last night and the night before and my day felt weird -- like it didn't conclude properly... Especially when the new server idiot pissed me off after talking to me for like 3 mins, I really really wanted to have K's company -- to the extent that I actually thought of going to his room to find him but chickened out duh.

And today, I sat with J the guy from Ecdr and K for dinner and J actually asked the two of us if we were together. Omg it was like embarrassing and I so didn't dare to look at K and when I answered in the negative, J actually went on to say that he thought we'd make a good couple. Oh gosh please please don't put ideas into K's head. I really like things the way they are now, and I guess I just really don't wanna face any awkward situation or anything that could possibly alter this good feeling. Yet at the same time, when K mentioned that have I forgotten about patting him on the back when he coughs, and he said "like what, just after 2 days?". I was like thinking omg who's counting, not me, yeah him (and actually yeah me darnit >.<). Raaaa. My heart thumped once then. Darnit. I hate decisions, or possible shadows of any decision making of the heart.

ARGH.

I had a really honest talk about this with JY though, and I think she can tell I'm pretty confused. Honestly, if I weren't with R right now, I would probably be more into it with K because I'm getting really fond of him. But then again, if I weren't already with R, I probably would be thinking wayyyy much more than now/this and reacting somewhat differently.

Oh well. Life life life.

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