Sigh

Question.

Why am I so uninspiring?
Why can't I be enlightening and inspiring like Ste-?
Why am I such a lousy C-?
Why am I so soft?
Why do I ALWAYS say the wrong things?
Why do I never know what to do?
Why am I never, never sure of myself?
Why do I let people walk over me?
Why can't I stop trying to please EVERYBODY??????
Why do I sway easily?
Why can't I say no?
Why can't I bear to push people more?
Why can't I stop blaming myself?
Why can't I stop feeling guilty when I'm in a bad mood or being mean?
Why can't I stop trying to be goody two shoes?
Why can't I stop trying to be nice to EVERYBODY?? Even those I dislike?!?
If one thinks being a popular leader is not necessarily a good leader, does it mean its a bad thing??
Why why why whyyy...
Why can't I tell anyone my troubles and questions and not feel like I'm boring them or wasting their time or feel guilty??

Because I have to figure all this out myself. Only then would I grow stronger... I only wish I could have transferred my lessons to her today. I really really really understood how she felt. But I just didnt know what to say, how to say, when to say... I'm not good in cry-ey situations. Sigh.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~