Frustration Reigns

I don't know why I keep trying, and denying that I try. But each time I try and fail, it hurts more and hardens me even more. I don't know what to do anymore.

I'm one part sad, one part reluctant for it to just end, 3 parts pissed off, 4 parts irritated and very frustrated, 5 parts at a loss and 8 parts just wanting to give up. 2 parts has me wanting to throw a tantrum, but 3 parts knows I can't or just keeps trying not to anyway.

I really really want to move on, but I don't know how to -- gracefully anyway. I kinda even half want to break down just to get it over with, no matter how ugly.

Part of me just really wants to cry, because I already am anyway -- inside at least.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~