hrm. HRM. i just read sue's lj and debbie's. its so weird u kno. everytime someone like katho or whoeva goes 'ure so lucky. ur class is so bonded' and then i'll be like 'heh yeah i guess' but im LAUGHING CYNICALLY inside. bloody hell. with ppl like sue OVERJOYED to leave? and evelyn who neva felt she fit in? and debbie and dunno dunno who. argh. im having a headache now. sigh. truth be told. i agree. 'friends foreva' is no longer even a hope. its just crushed. reality did that. mbbe growing up. lol. when i left primary school life wuz so simple and uncomplicated. and i wuz just happy i had no regrets. but now.. i cant even have any regrets not cuz like my life wuz superb but cuz i cant imagine a betta one. thats how SAD rg is. or mbbe its just us. girls. or something to do with a corelation between intellect and eq ya. sigh. to sue: I think ure the insensitive one alot of times. stop being such a self centred person. i like u fine sometimes. but sometimes i just wanna ask u to shut up =(. u keep preaching lotta stuff but then u turn around and do it. wat can i say. and evelyn. u kno its just recently only but suddenly some days ago i looked back and felt really sad. cuz i really miss the friendship we had. life wuz so much simpler then huh. we were all so silly with our 'picnics' and walking around like flamingoes and soaping up the bathroom so much that even after numerous washings it wuz so slippery! and and baking cookies and stuff. rollerblading, teaching me to speak french. i still rmb how to say it u kno. i just cant type it out cuz i dunno how to spell it. did u change so much? or mbbe me? or wuz it that u were like that all along and i neva knew? suddenly ure so mysterious... but then.. so is everyone else. girls being girls have alot they keep inside; us being us often dont confide everything to single person. too vulnerable that way. and humans being humans have such disgusting attitudes and natures yet are too vain to let others kno... but... in a way im glad i had my class. because we're just a class of misfits trying to fit with each other. its so funny. yet heartening. thanks for being so enthusiastic and crazy. thanks for trying. just. blah. its so nice to see we made such an impact on some of our teachers. like ms goh and mrs bala. pleased. touched. glowy. warm. thank you. neva knew ms goh liked our class so much. i'm gonna miss kim. sigh. oh well. i wish i had those proverbial one best friend who pops over at my house or vice versa everyday. so much less complicated. sigh. headaches back. it wuz gone for that period when my mood wuz so bad. sad sad. dun cry. =( i need a holiday. i wish i cld just rant at my parents for leaving me alone with my brothers and me needing to cook, do a few chores, and try to study. i think its all the psychological worries. and the guilt and wat not for not studying hard. and the lack of sleep =P oh man. i needed this rant so much. sigh. it doesnt even cover everything i wanna say. i realised i've neva talked abt uwc. weird. lol. too precious. heh. oh well. sigh. im glad im at a low because then when im at a high, i'll kno it too. =)

'in ur darkest hour, look up and u'll see theres always a star with u' =)