Miserable

It's disgusting to note my hundredth post here with a miserable one. But then again, 9/10 of my posts here arent exactly very happy either.

I can't believe I'm feeling so miserable. I really really hate blocked noses. Esp the kind where it doesnt seem to ever get unblocked! Not even for a moment! I got a tension headache from blowing my nose off.. And I'm still so lethargic and sleepy because last night at like 3.40fuckingam my nose decided to go totally block up and I had to wake up and try to remedy the situation so I could breathe. There I was trying to make a hot drink, and i mean boiling hot, and swaying around trying not to fall asleep on my fucking feet. Kinda dangerous on hindsight, yet kinda funny too.

I feel bad not going to school today. But I really just couldn't summon up the energy or will... D ings and his ws nvm... But I sorta promised ht I would like study with him and make him memorise stuff yet I couldnt even wake up before 12 and get to school. Yeah well I bathed and changed into pe attire, but so what. Lol.

I sorta had a highlight of the day though. The auntie selling my mum the kueh just now said I'm "piao liang". Haha it's so funny she's not scolding me or anything cuz my mum went back to change different kuehs like 3 times just cuz of picky me. It's not like I'm the sort who needs affirmations of my looks and compliments to live;it's just nice to hear something like that once in a while. Especially today... Plus I don't think I've heard that sorta compliment in a while.. Maybe several years hehe. Thank you auntie ;)

Oh well. Happy 100th post babe. Amazing that I'm still here really... Hope you people out there have a great day today, cuz I'm almost certain I wont.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

Adults are... dumb

Some things are so taken for granted that after a while, the fact blurs in with everyday life and gains forgiveness and tolerance... almost. But this time, it was just soooo apparent and I just have to say it: Adults are plainly, simply... dumb.

Imagine this:
Three young kids at home, each stoning and gazing unblinking into a computer screen. (Who gives a shit about dinner right?) Yeah so the clock ticks away and soon you realise its kinda like dinnertime? But who cares (Uh oh the tummy starts grumbling... growl growl growl) Bah let's just keep staring into the lovely computer screen! Type furiously away type type type bam bam bam shoot shoot shoot fight fight fight. Some stupid computer game ya or just surfing the net. (Stomach grumbles MORE) Okay okay... brain got the message: is hungry! So we just get some bread or instant noodles and stuff since parents are both busy making our lives comfortable and working their asses off to pay off the huge electricity bill that we are racking up!

Yeah well its not a big deal... Not like we do it everyday yeah.. Then so we all reluctantly one by one leave the silver screen wistfully and stuff some food down our throats. Voila! Problem solved... OR SO YOU THINK!

Ahha! Here comes the twist!.. Ring ring.... (Mum calls)

Mum: "hello have u eaten?"
brother: "mmm"
mum: "what are you all eating?"
brother: (mumbles mumbles) "in...stant..mm noodles..."
mum: "okay blablablablablabla"
brother: (tuned off already) "mmm"

so basically got the msg across that the three young poor fendless kids have eaten right? and here we have a repeat... but for daddy of cuz.

dad: "hm have u all eaten"
brother: "xxxxxxx"

(haha okay the xxx is not censored its just i dunno wat exactly he said but he just claims that we've all eaten)

so yeah we got the frickin msg across that we've all eaten! even tho its junk unhealthy food like instant mee and wat frickin not... who cares? it still fills our stomachs!

BUT APPARENTLY NOT!

ring ring....

mum: "WHY YOU ALL SAY YOU HAVE EATEN LIAO!?"
me: " huh cuz we ate liao marh"
mum: "YOUR DAD CALLED ME UP TO SCOLD ME SAY I NEVER TAKE CARE OF YOUR DINNER BUT YOU ALL SAID YOU"VE EATEN LIAO yadayadayadayadayada"

and on it goes with me assuring her that we've eaten and asserting that i dunno what the hell my brother told my dad. yeah so i told her we've all eaten (how many times have i said this?? just here alone?!) and yeah she doesn't need to buy food back for us.

and guess what?! she freaking comes back with one thosai (okay my youngest brother wanted that) and TWO kway teow soup. and she expects me to eat it! wahhhhhhhhhh i ate liao leh! i told her i told him i told the whole world. and she's like "i dont care since i bought it back u better eat!!" wtf?! what abt my poor full stomach?!?!?! why you keep stuffing me! im not a stuffed toy!

but my brother happily demolishes the food anyway. weirdo. bottomless pit. no wonder hes so FAT. he doesnt kno when to stop anymore...

Okay im outta breath. phew.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

Promos Schedule

Thurs 29/9:
GP 1 08 - 0930 Hall Row 18
GP 2 10 -1130 Hall Row 18


Fri 30/9:
Chi AO 08-1130 Hall Row 11

PC 230-4pm Hall Row 6


Mon 3/10:
Lit 1- 3pm Hall Row 6


Tues 4/10:
Hist 1 - 4pm Hall Row 5


Wed 5/10:
Econs 1 - 330pm Hall Row 7


Thurs 6/10:
Maths 8 - 11am Hall Row 18


Fri 7/10:
Econs MCQ 8-8.50am Hall Row 7

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Looking at the schedule, my studying priority should be as follows:

1) Lit -MFM + Frost

2) Econs -Everything!! (gulp)

3) SEA Hist -Everything!! (gulp x2)

4) Int'l Hist -Soviet Fall + Cold War

5) Maths -Everything!! ( wahhhhhhhhhh...)

6) Econs MCQ -Pia tys like mad!!

Hoho. The list looks fabulously and deceptively short.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

*097

I finished filing my history stuff! Three files, 8 dividers and 1 giant hole-puncher =)

Now I should find my promos timetables and check which subject I should study first. Something tells me maybe I should actually work on my econs no matter what and file it too. Okay next target shall be my econs file.. booo... still gotta go to bren's house to drop off her notes. Hope I'll be productive on the way there!

After my koka mee, which is my lunch, dinner, breakfast, I shall start all the other stuff. Lalala =)

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

Rarrhh

that is so.. joy ce. i can't believe im sick. and i dun wanna go to sleep cuz i kno i'll feel worse when i wake up!

rarhhh! it's spoiling all my plans! i wuz actually planning to study some you know... now i feel like half the battle's lost... all i can think of is hoping desperately i wont be in this state when i take the exams. BUT IM NOT GIVING UP!

i'm gonna douse u in panadol cold tablets and water and blanket and lots of xiang sang ju! GRRR GO AND DIE FUCKER! LIKE RIGHT NOW!

i feel better already =)

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

Purple Feathers

Boo... Havn't blogged in like ten days or more. Promos coming up in a week; exactly a week. And of course what have I done? Or what can I claimed to have done? Read ONE of my lit text and tried to do some sort of analysis... And that leaves the following undone:

26 Robert Frost Poems
12 Chapters of Maths
4 Chapters of Econs
4 Chapters of Int'l Hist
2 Chapters of SEA Hist
One whole blue book of Chinese

Of course the Econs and History 4 and 2 chapters are really deceiving cuz these two are the BIG subjects. Doesn't help that up till now, the highest I've ever gotten for any econs essay was my FIRST ever essay at the start of the year. It's so fantastically encouraging to get a 10/25 after 9 months of econs... Initially I was wondering if I should even bother trying for S papers, but then now that I decided I shall at least not sell myself short and give myself the options, I'm really pessimistic about being able to achieve it... Esp since all I'm aiming for econs is to maintain that freaking O. It's slowly beginning to sink in that promos might actually be different from all those sec school EOYs and that it might actually matter a shitload more?

I just slept from like 5 or 6 till 9 and I'm still sleepy... Today was a horrid day cuz all my plans got disrupted. Although my plan was to simply get home earlier and just sleep. Had a series of nightmares last night, the type where you feel you're trying desperately to wake up but you do for a sec and then you sink back into the nightmare. Havn't had something like that in ages... Years probably. The worst thing was that it was about people I know now, in the school. Can't rmb much except that it included d ings and me pointing the third finger and sir catching it 0.0 Maybe it serves to point out the ridiculously high regard I have for sir and everything else proper atm. I can't help it. As long as I feel that I have to meet expectations I tend to get quite uptight...

My mind is a sudden blank when I want to coherently type out the mess in my head. Shall go then. Sigh.

Someone out there gimme some strength; I feel I can't make it on my own much longer...

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

Desolate

I feel so sad! All my fault for not religiously keeping up with the class blog... ='( I missed j ill's birthday dinner! I feel quite sad haha dunno why. Nvm I'm sure the girl had lotsa fun anyway. She's quite likeable ya.. even though at first I totally totally didnt know what to make of her and didn't like her at all. Hehe. Happy Birthday girl! Though u'll probably never see this =P

I'm dying here. Figuratively of course. If it was literal, I won't even waste my time here. Got too much to do. I wish I could regain the urgency of the past months... I'm starting to let my homework fall behind. Probably because now it takes more effort to achieve just a tad of that same standards... I dunno sigh. It's been 2 weeks and I'm still trying to START my international history essay. I hate writing essays which I cannot decide exactly what I want to write from the start. I hate it hate it hate it. Unless it's lit cuz somehow it'll just flow once I get started. Wait... I have to START first. I have another lit essay that has to be done. Something tells me I obviously won't get it done by tmr...

So I decided. Once I finish my history essay I will allow myself to watch two vccds of Meteor Garden and consume 1/3 the loaf of cereal bread with butter! Omg I'm drooling at the thought already. I'm so sleepy from sleeping at 4am + last night. So oh well.

Yup. Once school reopens, I'm going running + gymming twice a week. And playing floorball on fridays too. Confirm. Plus I'm gonna stay back everyday and study the fuck off my socks.

I'm getting quite pissed with myself.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

Updates and Other dates =P

~Yesterday...

Sentosa with my babes. 5 of us only though. but better than none. Played volleyball awhile in the drizzle then got heavier so decided to stop. Sat around under the shelter and took pictures, played with the flower and of cuz ate and drank good stuff. Jo an drifted off to sleep, whilst I shivered and huddled on my chair, just stoning. Aisy sat there taking pics of herself (photowhore! =) hehe but she looks good la duh) and listening to music from her pda. Waited for bren and ja to get back from 7-11 with foooood and drinks.. mmmmm.

Started playing volleyball again after a while. Some people joined us hehe. Quite funny la. The guys. And got one nice friendly girl yup. Ended up one of the guys got his friend to ask for jo an's number. even chased allllll the way to the toilet to ask us again. Lol! Makes me wonder why I don't get that happening to me huh. Too fugly! Hehe. Oh well. Dunno howwww I'm sooo gonna get my 18 boyfriends. Hahahaa! I just told this sgselltrade seller about it cuz I wanted to purchase the fourskin top which had this really cute pic of a tree made up of stick men! Then she said I was a funny girl. hehee! Anyway yeah. Afterwards played a little bit of soccer with them too. Nice people. I think we should do this more often! Just cannot spend so much on food la. Shit.

Then went to joan's house. Had foccacia with melted cheddar and mozzarella. LOVEEEELY! Plus the damn good sausages! Had dinner with her family. Watched Jerry Macguire! DAMN nice! Ray, the little boy in the show, is FRICKIN CUTE! "Do you know the human head weighs eight pounds?" "Do you know my neighbour has 3 pet rabbits?" "Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee" and then he goes on the luggage roundabout and hifives everybody! SO CUTE. AAAAAAAAAAAAAhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.


~On another note...

I must really start watching my spending! 64.10 on stuff that are like... half of them are useless la! Ugh. The black beaded bracelet, the gold clipons, the turq bracelet, the white belt, the pearl bracelet, the star earrings, and probably the go fish pendant... that could have all just left me with 29.10$ more to spend.. sigh. SIGH.

Next week I go back to school the whole week eat instant mee can liao ya... Sheesh. Don't know whats fucking wrong with me. Never ever save money. Some more I'm supposed to reach 2k$ at the end of this year.... I bet I can't even maintain the 1600$. Started out with $1800 leh.. UGH. Should get some work. But like, my cca doesnt really permit it huh.. Sigh.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~