For the first time I could ever remember, I actually like the way I look now. Too bad it won't last...

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Having this sudden urge to watch lovey-emo shows like xiarimomocha.

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I don't know where my demarcation lines for friendship are anymore; but whatever it is, I know I will cherish this.

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For some reason or another, this approaching birthday seems somewhat... different. Pensive, reflective and contemplative, tinged with a thread of urgency and frustration; what do I want? In life, for friends, for family and for myself...?


I hate to say this but I still don't know...

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

My Xmas Gift

I don't celebrate Christmas, but that doesn't mean someone can't make mine.

"I cannot help it leh. Talking to you is like a drug; if I don't then will get withdrawal symptoms."

So sweet, my heart almost melted. Almost.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

Movies Movies Movies

Watched tons of movies this past week or so. Filipino, korean, japanese and Hollywood blockbusters; almost seems as though I've been around the world.

Transporter 1&2 were awesome, Italian Job too of course, Cheaters (korean), Can this be love (Filipino), Call for love (Chinese), Beyond our Ken (HK), and Beauty and the breast (HK). All pretty good in their own surprising ways =)

Watching Check it out Yo! right now which is rather funny. But when this guy confessed to the tomboy girl, I had this sudden sudden urge to blog about it.

"Because I'm in love with you."

"So I know who you're in love with..."

And suddenly it doesn't seem so bad being tomboyish or guyish like the girl is in the show, because what's the point in making yourself miserable by being someone you're not? Yet, guess I also shouldn't let myself be restricted by these self-constructed psychological ceilings. Only complicates things...

Guess I'll probably be just like the guy who confessed, maybe even less; loving someone who likes someone else and worse still, not daring to confess.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

Swollen Eyes

I cried myself silly this morning; and I cried myself sick.

Fuck.


I'm so sick of this. And the worst thing is, I don't know what to do to make it right...

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~