525600 Minutes...

That's apparently what a year is equivalent to. According to some song anyway. It's a nice song that I heard on radio not too long ago.

Nj match today. We won without a sweat! Haha. Okay la, only us defenders. Didn't get to play but I'm totally okay with that cuz it's a good sign! I thought the defence today was solid and organised. You could see the layer after layer of attacking when the opposing team tried to make runs into our 25. Hah! Wanlin was deservedly the Woman of the Match! She fought hard, ran hard, made good stops, intercepted numerous passes... Fantastic. Final scoreline of 2-0 though we had many many more chances. We'll just try harder!

I let someone affect me again. I can't stand it. She just practically killed the rest of my day. I don't even know why. Cuz of one stupid comment. Ugh. I should just shut up. Sometimes I realise I act cute or make stupid comments or something... Not intentionally... But I get the impression after that that people think it is. Wtv. I should just stop swaying from being totally blunt and mean to feeling guilty about it. Better come to a consensus with my thousand and one selves about how to behave and stuff. Ugh. I shall just shut up the next time I see her and not make any comments. She always takes them wrongly or something though I don't mean it in any perjorative way. WTV! Why should I let her affect me?! She's such a selfish player, bossy know-it-all and weak-minded person! BLEH YOU! I hate myself sometimes. Always trying unconsciously to win everybody over.

Anyway, I have quite an accumulated list of homework I think. Okay, I do. I really need to start being more disciplined and sleeping early. My cumulative lack of sleep is affecting me badly. One moment I'm full of energy, running high on adrenaline, the next I have difficulty keeping my eyes open! I'm no longer in my homework mood anymore...

Homework Homework Beloved Homework

- Maths Tutorial 8A
- SEA Hist Term Paper (Friday!!)
- Chinese Language Practice Paper 2
- Preliminary Ideas (Next Wed)
- Int'l Hist Position Paper Revised Version
- Int'l Hist Term Paper (16 May)

I wonder if I can fit in some running tomorrow. Or maybe I should go down to watch the guys' game. Or maybe not. Getting contacts tmr too. Ah well. One step at a time...

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

Garibaldi

We'll get a rope,
And hang the Pope:
So up with Garibaldi!

That's what thousands of English children apparently chanted when Garibaldi was welcomed warmly in London, where the whole country shut down just for him. He was a hero to the Italians and the English, but a dire enemy to the Pope and the Papal States. He spent his life running from 100,000-strong French and Papal armies, organising and leading wars to gain independence from papal control and reunite Italy.

Garibaldi, is also the name of the high-class French restuarant my family and I went to for dinner today. My dad heard on the radio that it served fantastic French dishes, and as a food-lover, he couldn't resist trying it out. He didn't know it was going to be so high-class, so expensive or so hard to spot! Lol. We would have practically walked past the entrance had my brother not spotted the reflection of the tiny white signboard saying "Garibaldi" The decor was simple yet tasteful though. No lighting except for lamps of various sizes placed round the moderate-sized dark-walled room, soft jazzy music crooning away in the background with the occasional tinkle of laughter drifting from other patrons... Ahh... But the best thing was the service. The smile, the tone, the dignity, the wit. Fantastic. Our waiter was good hehe. The food was not too bad. But I don't think I'd pay such a price for this kind of food. Once in a while it's okay I guess. Oh well.

Then since Garibaldi was at Purvis Street, met with Yean in the office to sign up Maxonline for my house. My dad's peculiar. Always changing his mind about services and products. Lol. Oh well. I hope I'm getting some money from him soon. Haha. -angelic smile- Cuz I really think I havnt got all the money I'm supposed to get! =( Oh well... Except he asked for my sales record and I cant rmb where it is or if I even have it! Die... =/

Oh well. That's all I have to say then.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

Golden Showers framing Pink Lilies...

What a crappy title! Hehe. Just looked at the really creative and well-matched flower arrangement next to the computer. Never thought orchids and lilies would go together; never expected pink and yellow to complement one another; never expected such a beautiful creation... But then again, orchids ARE part of the lily family... Hehe. Oh well.

Had elections today... Caught us by surprise. Esp me I guess - who'll be thinking about the next captain when the season is almost upon us and we're still not there yet?! Oh well. But apparently, all the j2s have been thinking about this because they handed in their votes so quickly! Only the ah mahs like me, brenda, tsai and dawn were left wondering... In the end I chose J oan as Capt and L anda as VCapt. Although most people might not have J oan in mind for Capn, but I think she's the kind who can kinda connect with everybody and although she's quite laughy-duffy but I think if responsibility is thrust upon her, she will meet expectations and exceed them too! I know that feeling thanks to last year. Even though there's this paramount doubt about your own abilities, but slowly, gradually, confidence creeps in and voila... you grow up. Hehe. T sai keeps mentioning more and more about me being in the running though I'll probly be a dark horse with J oan. Haha I think she's really amusing la! But actually, there might be a possibility, because the more I think of it, the more I am uncomfortable with A isyah being our likely captain.. Oh dear. Is this kinda mean of me? Feelings are unaccountable...

Anyway, I think I'm getting more and more un-self-conscious in sleeveless tops, though I'll probly just wear it at home simply for the comfort. Maybe I should buy a few more, cuz those I have are like this one with huge arm holes. Eww. Hehe. Oh yeah and our black jerseys are like.. sleeveless too! With a rather weird looking cut, but actually it looks pretty good when you wear it. Or well, just not that weird. Hehe. My plan for toning my upper arm never really worked out. Oh well. Not consistent enough I guess. Darn. I feel like swimming sometimes. Oh yeah and I think I'm starting to like running a little again. But I'm getting a teeny bit worried about my hip... I ran five rounds today! Felt like really quiet good! Brenda thought 5 rounds was really short, but to me its just enough.

Oh yeah, actually I borrowed a vcd from the library today, thinking I'd get home early, whack the books then watch it. But in the end, I didnt get home all that early, didnt do homework cuz none were immediate and didnt watch it either! Not in the mood la! In any case, it's a Chinese production and entitled ''Shower". It's about the relationship between a father and his two sons. Guess who rec'd it to me?! An Indian librarian lady! I was quite interested really... By the incident, not the movie hehe. Oops. =)

Omg, it's ONLY 10.40 now! I am going to sleep. EARLY!

As the saying goes: "early bird catches the best sleep" - jw teehee.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

Movie Review - A la Folie Pas Du Tout (He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not)

FREAKY. Extremely eerie. Nothing prepared me for the slant that the second part of the movie would have exposed me to... This French movie started off with the story from the young girl's point of view. She's a talented young art student, who works part-time as a waitress, and her life revolves around the love of her life, Loic, a married cardiologist. She gets insanely neurotic over anyone who tries to take Loic away from her, even his pregnant wife, a patient who accused him of assault and her good friend. Then, the story moves back to the beginning and begins again, this time from Loic's point of view. Initially, one doubts his sincerity and honesty of his affair/relationship with her. However, gradually the events spin a different thread from the initial story, and now a different reality is slowly but surely sinking in... Gulp. Freaked me out BIG TIME.

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That aside, today had a rather unproductive but great library session with t sai, k im and b enjy. Made me so much happier again hehe. Thanks k im! You're my babe always man. =) I havn't acted so silly and made such stupid remarks since.... too long! I really missed the way she never condemned me, brushed me aside like an irritating bzzz, told me I'm mean for fun and she's never never made me feel small. Thanks dear, really really glad that I had the chance to meet and get to know you. =)

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

O zest, where art thou?

Hmm. Somethings up with me but... I can't get my finger on what it is. I'm freaking sure its not PMS. Cuz its not like this. I'm just like... automatically moving thru life, with no life in me at all. The good thing is, I can kinda hide it from people by just saying to my classmates that 'Oh its just hockey la. Been training hard and frequent.' Or they simply assume it is anyway. And to the hockers I can simply shrug it off as 'Homework and lack of sleep la, no biggie!' -hugeesmile-

I've been unenthusiastic about hockey; zoned out during lessons; drifting from friends. I don't know wtf is wrong with me. I should be counting my bloody blessings - being healthy, being (rather) fit, being in a top institution, being in a fun class full of funkeh ppl, being a daughter of liberal, not naggy and not kiasu parents... So much soooo much to say thank you for. Yet I'm fucking here just fucking down and not fucking knowing why. Shit!

I dont kno why the captaincy issue keeps popping up. Its starting to irritate me atrociously. (But then again everything is too lol.) Shouldn't everyone worry about tournament, play their hearts out, and celebrate with tears (be it happy or sad) first?! What's the big deal anyway... But since we're on this topic, I really pity next year's captain though. P au has set such high standards and since she's the only captain we've ever known, thus she's the only benchmark we have... The first is always the most unforgettable if not the best, it always seems.

I wanna go run. Feel the strain. Relish the ache. Will the push. Release myself.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

Too Little Time, Like Always...


First match up against njc, against marilyn, against my favourite coloured uniforms. Hehe. Speaking of which, I wish we had ordered booootiful gray and black jerseys like that of the Tennis guys. Simply booooooootiful! Sigh. Oh well, but since we didn't, I hope when I'm playing that I'm playing well enough to suppress my discomfiture with our black jersey hehe. At least I got the number I wanted! 2! =) Season's starting soon... 10 days more to be exact. I'm not good enough yet! I'm not strong enough! I'm not confident enough! I'm not skilled enough! I'm not.. I'm not... I... Oh shuttup me. Be strong. Stay low. On my toes. Constantly moving. Stick side. Stick down. WILLPOWER.

Have been rather busy squeeeeezing in my work whenever I can. It has been two weeks of late-nights and furrowed brows. Recas Logo, Projects, Homework. Sigh. I shant even comment on them. What's done is done and will not be raised. I really need to stop pulling late-nighters though, they're puffing up bags under my eyes, giving me nice round dark circles, and a oh-shit-i-think-i'm-sick feeling. NOT enjoyable. Plus I'm zoning out during lectures and tutorials alike, which I really can't afford with the time constraints now.

To-do List:

1) Maths Tutorial 7 - AP/GP
2) Chinese Zuo Wen
3) Econs TYS 3.1 and 3.2
4) GP essay

Oh yeah. Recently, the issue of captaincy has been raised with increasing frequency. A name that has been popping out quite alot has been A isyah. Or should I say it's the only name probably. Although I'm not against it, I'm not totally for it either. I feel there are probably some better choices but that's just personal. Most people seem to think it'll be hers anyway, but I think it's because it's apparent that she wants it the most. Or maybe I'm just reading too much into her actions now after a certain little bird informed me about her probable goal. Heh. Maybe I'm just a cynical ass. Most likely.

Sleep is the new luxury good. And I'm going to indulge like now.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

'Friendly' Inspiration

Played first match against a Singapore team today. Who else did we have to meet except for the champs? Heh. Went in pretty nervous because we basically know all the players are skilled ones and that most of us didn't have a background in hockey. But I came out feeling pretty okay actually, not devastated, although I did feel that I have alot of room for improvement! I pretty much felt like I screwed up the game over some tiny decisions I made. Ugh.

I will scan around before I hit and really look.

I will shout for people to move if they're blocked.

I will look to the sides for one touch down the lines.

I will learn to switch play and not always be a bodoh and hit thru centre la.

I will make stronger clearances and sweep!

I will put my stick down and stay low.

I will improve my mental strength!

I will communicate alot alot alot.

Oh yeah. My nice big bro wrote me my first testimonial for Friendster. So cute =) Lol the keropok must have done the trick!! Nyahahaha. Though of cuz he denies it, but I'm lil sis and I know! Ha! -smuggg- Shucks and I'm supposed to do my International History readings + questions now. Hmm. Tomorrow's a terribly long day, ending at a sluggish 5pm with only oneee punitive break! Should sleep soon. List of to-dos. Wonder why I'm suddenly so fond of list-making. Heh.

- Maths Tutorial 5 Transformations

- SEA readings on Economic Entreprise

- Chinese Journal 3

- International History: Korean War case study - 9 questions

Wow. Cant believe thats all I could think of. Thought I had a wayyy longer list. Heh.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

Sheesh. Why am I not a techie? I have this simple layout in mind, with a sidebar that lists 'to-do list', 'wanted', 'songs to check out', and umm more. Yet this inability to translate idea into reality is seriously vexing me. I know nuts about cars, hi-fi systems, mp3 players, computers and the WWW. Blah. I can't even figure out where to fix the font colour for this one.

I ever mentioned that I 'adopted' brother? He's a fantastic piano player, humorous easy-going guy! -beams- Freaking cute. Hehe. He's so humble too! He totally doesnt gloat over his piano skills and everytime he finishes a piece he has this totally embarrassed look. Awww... I'm such a proud lil sis, even though I'm actually older by default. Lol. -beammmm-

Dragged myself down to Beauty World yesterday after training with B renda after training. It was a dark and rainy and screwed up game training. And simply too short, in my opinion. Anyway, I finally bought some uniform, though they didn't have enough blouses for me to buy. I'm so horrendously huugge - 32.5 skirt 38 blouse. My friends are wearing 26, 28 and having it pretty loose. Oh well.

Got to run down to buy some loaves of bread for my mother, cuz she says the current one tastes bad. I have to agree. It's some milky brown bread that doesnt seem to have fibre at all. Looks totally unappetising too.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~