hiiiiii. im feeling good today from trng! it wuz such a dreary thing until that great one throw and her that wuz not a bad throw comment! ahhhhhhh so good so good. YAY. im feeling good now. im such an obsessive possessive compulsive jealous freak. hrm. hehehehehehe.. i just feeel like smiling and twirling around and around and around. yay byeeee =)

'in ur darkest hour, look up and u'll see theres always a star with u' =)

MAN. I HATE IT WHEN SOMEONE ASKS ME A DARN QUESTION AND THEN QUESTION MY DARN ANSWER. its like the how many freakingth time. ask for timetable. then ask if correct. blah. dun ask la! ur loss.. assholes.. i go dig out my notebook for u some more. waste my effort. pshhhh. im too grumpy. complaining madly. sigh. breathhhhheeee. this stupid ozone project is irking me. im not too sure wats needed. sigh. and the housing project.. even worse.. and im wondering if i left out any hmwk. just realised chinese mocks are in 2 weeks. yay! =) =/ -gags- decided i shld make an effort to keep this one alive. thts why im here. crankily. eyes tired. yawningggg. its so freaking warm. i wish i had to house to myself. then i can be cooler. blah. i found a new artiste i like. david gray. well.. at least from that one song. and josh groban seems pretty okay. nirvana still rocks hehe.

had caltex on sat. not too good.. hmm. i wuz pretty tense.. release wuz all off. didnt meet 18 at all. hrm. didnt feel sad... i just felt. a lil disappointed. but like more determined. i need to work out the kinks in my technique. and take throw sessions more seriously. cant let the weather affect me. hrm. and weights. heavier! technique technique technique. ugh the fan just went off thanks to timer. must be my mum. yuck. i cant go without fans... my life line in this melting weather. I WILL FINISH THIS DARN PROJECT. and THE OTHER ONE TOO! I WILL! im so on abt projects now. but neglecting individual work. lol. need to start mugging. talked to donna friday i think. shes nice =) and i just bitched and bitched abt kiasyn and radyn to her lol. except we had a few diff ways to pronounce the names lol. unlearned garnet. i find it easier to mine like that. lol. need like 1.4k more gems.. i foresee.. another month or so of mining. hrm. darn. psh. track camp proposal now in the lurch. in the doldrums. in the dust bin. ms yeo didnt approve. WHY CLDNT SHE TELL US EARLIER! :'( wahhhhhhhhhh i wanted to cry when i saw her reply. ugh ugh. first draft sent out in early mar! why nobody say anything?!??!?! BSH BSH BSH. think i so free go think up stuff is it?!? and yushan wants amazing race at least she suggested. crap... im not planning that kinda shit man! fk fk fk.. im so angsty today. SIGH. justins gonna get back with mel soon. just a matter of time. hooray. i'll be able to tell i bet. hrm. blur guy. and aa wuz pissed with me yest when he found out i deleted him of my list. i cant help it. hes like stuck to kia. whos.. cheap.. and tts the nicest adjective. seriously. that got me thinking. shld we judge ppl by the frens they have? i still cant get a satisfactory answer.. sigh... one part says no one part says yes. after all birds of the same feather flock together ya? and the two are pretty similar. blah. apparently he still likes me. but sorry.. i almost fell for that last time only cuz i wuz so despo but then thanks to the convo with u admitting u still like mel lots.. thanks lots =) brought me down to earth or well probly deeper. and now u come back and say its not true. sorry ure just the kind i dun trust wat u say. too bad. dunno for me or u. im kinda losing a nice fren/person to talk to. just like justin to mel. nvm. no biggie. shld i add him back? he sounded quite hurt. but then its expected ya. hmm then he got pissed and uhh dunno wat at the same time. one moment said he cant bliv me and blah blah and like how i dun want to talk to him and uhh cant rmb. next moment say can work out not and wats the problem. blinks. blah. i dun wanna tell him its cuz of kia. shes hes fren after all. she must have something nice. hrm. dunno la. sigh sigh sigh. i will shut up. lifes good. i must blog abt good stuff heh.

oh yea bought all the stationary needed today yay. need to start filing lol. sigh. its gonna take me ages. i can take one night to do one file. where am i gonna find the time. i will. okay i will. need to get a set of drawers for my jewellery/clips/watevaelsebs. heh. i wanna play squash. wonder if i shld get contacts hrm. i think i'll look betta.. or at least my face wun look so short. cuz like my specs always lower than my eyes. so it makes it look as tho my eyes are lower. cuz no nose bridge haha. i wanna cut my hair. so hot. can tie again already. i wanna cut the kind uhh shorter at the back than at the sides hmm. i think i look much betta with fringe. cant see my forehead haha. sometimes that is. i wanna get a world accent. need to stop speaking singlish. sleepy. i still havnt finished reading da vinci hrm. wonder if i have any thing on tmr. dun think so. anw neeed to studyyyy. chinese mocks. vector test. chem test. yup yup. oh yea waddle reflections alrighty. cyaaa off to be a good girl =) thanks for letting me smile

'in ur darkest hour, look up and u'll see theres always a star with u' =)

havnt blogged in more than a week. sigh. had a few tests. hmwk due. that kinda stuff. had pft today. one major huge disappointment. ipu. i cant bliv i didnt get an A. overconfident mbbe. but i felt so out of sorts when i wuz doing it. half the time my arm wuz stuck at the bar and half the time telling hweifen to move up or down. then like i shldnt have listened to her when she said widen arms easier cuz its not fking true. when u widen arms u use diff muscle too and u dont go 90degrees and i think the bar wuz too low. blah wateva. spoiler for my day. sigh. only myself to blame i guess.

elly and trish gave me a wonderful present =) its this 3 blue thread chain kinda necklace with a nice blue star pendant. so pretty =) made my day.. well before pft. lol. i really really liked it tho its blue cuz its a nice kinda blue and it has three shades. haha sihui gave me a gift a few days ago! SO SWEET! and its like just a gift. she said still got present coming... 0.o haha i like her lots. eh neva knew shes in bball tho. heh and bballers beat everyone in their super scary group kno. jurong ny and assumption. heh. i hope they won today. cuz if they did then i can go support on friday! crap shld i go for chem remedial tmr? bleh. have to skip at least one hour of training if i do. hrmmm... HOW?!? im not supposed to skip trng. dammit. but then shes only holding remedials on tues and thurs. crapcrap. and still have the stupid pccac thing. at first say dun be late. then cant work then postpone postpone postpone now must sign up for slots and due within three days.. blinks.

i got amaths test tmr. and im feeling so blah. i just came home and slept today. hell. i dun have to sleep tonight liao like that. i hope i get to at least force myself to revise. i seriously need to clean up my room. its such a pigsty and like breeding ground for sluggishness! sigh. ms yeo just raise objections to kayaking just when i thot i can wash my darn hands off the camp... i feel like crying now. why didnt she raise any when i sent it out the first time!?!!???!? UGH! ='( sigh. caps off a great day man. dammit dammit dammit dammit. wkend over liao so why dun i feel as tho im rested..... sigh. its times like this when i feel stressed sigh. i wanna go plunge my head into cold water. and live happily eva after. yay feeling betta now. all thanks to aaron. woot. off to do geog project!

'in ur darkest hour, look up and u'll see theres always a star with u' =)

i finally got him to come clean. i knew it. hehe. thing is.. im quite surprised that i didnt really feel anything but like understanding.. i kno it sounds.. like im such a good person. rofl nahh i think its more like cuz i suspected from the start.. probly why i neva really opened up. heh. like u hide smth and u expect me to show myself? hmm not fair trade.. haha. now im just feeling all sighy and yawny. rofl. i feel a lil sad cuz like i kno we're gonna drift.. and hes a pretty nice person to kno. that poem he wrote for chels wuz so nice =) sleepy. mbbe i shld go take a bath.. but but.. im like too lazy to get out of this chairrrrrrrr. haha. i hope he wun say stuff like he used to anymore.. just doesnt ring true even more now. =) hope he isnt a hypocrite. i dun like those.. and i'll only start getting pissed or sounding so. then he'll get mad rofl. heck. now need to focus on studies and training. goals. those must fulfil. must at least.. try...

'in ur darkest hour, look up and u'll see theres always a star with u' =)

YES! sports day is now over! woot! i can have a life! life consisting of tests tests comp test training o lvls. WOW. how fascinating huH?! arent u just jealous? rofl... im seriously going mad. sigh.

sports day.. wuz pretty okay i guess... im quite happy with my run earlier. but just i wish my legs didnt die so fast heh. then hmm.. oh well.. i thot the cheerleading wuz damn good.. but they didnt get anything. dammit sigh. hmm..

and now aa and i are on talking terms again. like.. after one day?? blinks. keep 'fighting' then reconciling.. so stupid. and its like only been.. since mar hols?? blah.. but.. i can feel the drift.. slowly surely. i mean come on. wheres the fun once theres no challenge right.. plus like he liked three ppl in the past... one and a half years? okay mbbe one wuznt really his part but hmm oh well. lvling is so slow. sigh. only at 32/32/32. blah blah blah. and theres this stupid flying ant flying around me... sigh. feeling so quiet now. my brother just came back. sure make beeeeeg beeeeeeeeeeeeg fuss abt me using comp and not going school today. sigh. sigh. sigh. at least tmr public hol.. hmm.. mbbe not that great.. but oh well.. got a day of rest. hope i get some chinese done. ladeda.

'in ur darkest hour, look up and u'll see theres always a star with u' =)

mrs ban walked out of our class quietly today. she wuz angry with those ppl who cant stop talking and talking when shes talking. and she wuz sniffing. sigh. i feel so... helpless and angry with myself. i mean like why didnt i like ask those pigs to shut up!? goodness knows how many times the past two weeks i've been wanting to. mrs bala's already pissed with us. and before that ms neo. i dun think mrs naidu is too happy either. esp since someone is either making stupid comments or sleeping in class or complaining damn loudly. ugh. i hate this. why didnt i do something?!? i've been wanting to raise the topic of changing our seating arrangement during cle. but like.. i feel so self-depracating at the same time when i mention this cuz like i mean hello? we're sec 4s and we have to change our seating arrangement just cuz we cant control our mouths?! wth... sometimes i wish some ppl would take the hint and shut up. stuff a sock in their mouth or smth. i dun care if its smelly. sigh. i feel so.. weighted now. hrm. oh well.. blog later mbbe. if im not too tired. trng today. cant wait. must work harder.

'in ur darkest hour, look up and u'll see theres always a star with u' =)

sleepy. omg i think im so smart. either that or too experienced. i have a great feeling its dying out. very fast. =) smirks. and im thinking i kno bcuz of who too.. lol.. shall see if i can speed it up. its scary to feel vulnerable and open to someone. ooOooo i realised i have aim. i thot i did. but i dunno how to use it. i shall learn! rofl. sleepy. shall i go sleeeep. hrm. i feel like im being made used of. hrm. wats wrong with me. must be pms. tsk tsk.

'in ur darkest hour, look up and u'll see theres always a star with u' =)

haha im feeling quite hopeful, satisfied and like determined now. had trng yest. and i think my turn improved! YAY! haha. i seriously hope i can get much betta with it. although im a bit worried cuz sarah and geri learnt for two years but their standing still betta than turn.. =/ mines about the same now i think.. i just need to work on my rhythm. and it always looks as tho its flying far but it drops so fast. hrm. need to make it flyyyyy. flyyyyyyyyyy. need to do much more gym. hopefully i can hit like at least 1.5 times more than wat i started out with. ahhh so lil time! its like 3 months more. bleh. caltex on 24th. hope i do okay. targeting abt 21-22. well.. i still need to learn how to deal with nerves. =/ hehe.

i played a rather mean joke on aa. wahhhh all the 412 here now.. byeee

'in ur darkest hour, look up and u'll see theres always a star with u' =)