3 points on a Line

Recently, my life has basically been a back-and-forth between 3 points on a line - Hall, Class, Floorball.

Wow wow wow. Surprising how the latter two can really REALLY take up time.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

The R Word...?

Almost starting to feel re...

Still asking myself why why why.

Why.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~

1 year... so long?

Feels like I've been stuck in the bubble for too long ... only to be back to realise that I've been in one and that it's bound to be broken.

Has 1 year... really been that long? Why this year of all years to feel.. so long?

Went for formal hall dinner event last night, and the people I knew were those in the graduate robes. And even then, time stagnated in terms of topics... Which centred around my roommate (which I don't mind) and... the ex.. WHAT?! why?! it's been so long! And he's moved on, and so have I. WHY?!

Didn't help that I had to see him a gazillion times too. ...

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Then skyped with Yoshi and I-b, dear I-b, and felt just a little emo coming off it. Just cemented this feeling of displacement... Of having starting to settled there, but then uprooted and brought back here - a plant with roots already grown, but now in a different pot of soil.

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Followed by supper with d-gs and ht; and all that I just kept getting reminded about that I've been gone for 1 year. Somehow... things have changed. And he just kept saying that 1 year, 1 year has really been too long. Why were the 2 years before that I was here not that long then...?!

I just... don't know what to think anymore. Not wanting to come back, but not wanting to go back there either. Suspended in time and space?

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One sliver of light was J's email: a gentle reminder of a friend made in 1 country far from my own, and now in a country even further, but still a friend. A friend who's willing to respond to my questions and queries, to counsel my haphazard maze of confused thoughts and ambitions.

So thank you: for more than your email. For reminding me that I have friends, friends everywhere. And that friends will and can traverse space, and probably time.

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I just need some time. And to be kept busy -- which thankfully I am.

~ st*rcr*ss*d ~